Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Miscellaneous Things

That last post was so serious! Lame. Let's have a less serious one so we can shake it off.

Since we started dating, Matt and I have had Matt Night and Shannon Night. We have preserved nights of the week for alone time, and we have continued through getting married and reproducing. Monday night is Matt night. So what that looks like is we have an early dinner then I take the kids out of the house for an hour or so while Matt runs around naked or plays guitar or watches manly movies or whatever (okay, let's be honest here--he burns a hole in the desk chair while he plays video games until his eyes fall out). When we just had Ben, I would conduct bath, bed, etc. duty. Then the rest of the evening we would do "independent study" (Matt plays video games and I have my own nerd time). Now that we have two littles, the bedtime routing is a two-man job. But once the kids are in bed, it's back to independent study. Wednesday is Shannon night. Matt takes the kids out while I have the house to myself (luxury!), etc. Well, this week we were going over the child care schedule for the next several days (I have to go back to work, but daycare and preschool don't start yet). Ben announced, "Wednesday is Ben Day. I stay home by myself." So I guess that should take care of any questions about his parentage. He's mentioned it several times in the last couple of days. I've tried to tell him that it's actually frowned upon for parents to leave their four-year-olds unattended. But he's convinced he's going to have Ben Day tomorrow, all by himself. Which makes me wonder what exactly he would do with a Ben Day. I'm guessing it would involve a lot of TV, legos, and sugar.

We found a new daycare for Emma! She is licensed, and she's on the board of directors for child care or something, so she's probably not going to kidnap our daughter. Her house is lovely and immaculate, and she works around my district's schedule. It's more expensive than the last babysitter, but again, she probably won't abscond with our child. So it's worth it. She starts next Tuesday.

We have a beefy personal trainer as a neighbor/friend. Turns out he's an extreme coupon-er. I went over there the other day to get some tips. There's a filing system. Whoa.

Emma has an appointment with a pediatric ophthalmologist in October to assess her lazy eye. My friend Brandi begged me to make Emma a pirate for Halloween if she has to wear a patch. That reminded me of the Halloween when I had an eye-patch because I'd just had surgery. She really is a chip off the 'ol block.

I have seven friends (it might be more...I think I've lost count) that are pregnant and due during the month of February and early March. SEVEN. And that's just February/early March. That's not counting the several other friends due before that (or who've had a baby in the last month or so). What's great is that this really solidifies our decision to not birth anymore children. I mean, I'm going to have seven little nuggets to knit and sew for and snuggle. That should be plenty for me to get my baby fix and not feel the need to have another. But I've got a lot of knitting and sewing to do. I should probably start now so I can spread it out.

Speaking of my womb, I finally got around to listing our baby things on Craigslist. We're coming up on September, which means, as all you teachers know, that we're broke. I sold one item within an hour of posting. When I went to deliver it, I decided that I really liked the couple that bought it. I had to stop myself from asking them to tell me how the birth goes and send me pictures (not of the birth--of the baby), because I'm not actually friends with them and that would be weird and creepy.

Despite my last post, I must say that my summer has not been terrible. I have had a lot of fun. In between disasters. I've loved the sewing, and I've loved spending oodles of time with my littles. The other night we all cuddled in Ben's bed and sang our songs. Except Emma doesn't like to cuddle, so she kind of ruined it. But it was a really sweet 26 seconds.

I tried growing a vegetable garden in our "back yard." It yielded one tiny tomato. It was doing okay until the nasty heat wave hit and killed everything. Also, I think the fact that it only gets a couple of hours of sun a day is not optimal. Some plants are still growing. So maybe we'll get more. Or maybe I suck at growing things. Either way it was kind of fun trying.

We had a crotchety old lady in the other half of our duplex. She used to yell at our kids. But they moved out several months ago, and the unit has been empty for quite some time. Which was actually kind of nice, because we share one wall, so it's been quiet. But our new neighbors are moving in today, and they're great! We met them a couple of weeks ago. It turns out they go to our church and have a little boy who's a year old. Yay! We were really hoping to avoid cranky old ladies, so this is good news. Now our little "quad" has 3 four-year-olds, a three-year-old, 2 one-year-olds, and a five-month-old. Yay for friends for our kids! Now if we could just get rid of the wife-beater and the grumpy man who thinks he owns the city, we'll be all set.

Yesterday when the kids and I were having lunch with my step-dad, Ben said this about Matt: "His name is Daddy Matt Miller Duck. Because there's a duck in there." (Matt's middle name is Donald.) Ha!

We're letting our Disneyland passes expire this year because the cost for an annual pass is out of control. We are sad. I know, our first world problems are so overwhelming. But it was fun while it lasted.

Ben won a goldfish at the fair and it's still alive. If you ask Ben was his fish's name is, he will say, "Nothing. It's just a fish." Take that, PETA.

Emma's awake now, so I should probably go. One of these days I will do Emma's one-year post and a summer post and...wow, I'm already feeling overwhelmed. So let's just call it for now and say I'll try to not let this blog die.

Happy Tuesday!


Important Thoughts

I think if Facebook and whatnot had been around when I was in midde and high school my life would have been significantly worse. Which is saying something, because my middle and high school social experiences were not exactly glimmering with awesome. I was a nerd with THICK semi-curly hair and fat glasses. My nickname in 6th grade was Pits because no one ever told me about shaving. To think that Pits would have been permanently published on The Internet for all of the world to read...oy. And all of the stupid, petty rumors and gossip and rejection...the thought that it would have followed me home...makes me throw up a little in my mouth. I mean, sure, I sat by the phone and waited for no one to call. But at least my "friend requests" weren't outright rejected. At least there wasn't an actual number of friends to look at and compare. Could you imagine? You have an embarrassing moment and instead of 15 people laughing at you about it, EVERYONE does?

But I'm all grown up now, and I'm on Facebook. Sure, there's been a pretty decent amount of stupid, petty rumors and gossip and rejection. But I'm older and wiser now, and if you "unfriend" me because of how I vote...well, I'm pretty sure I'm cool with our friendship being over. I've got bigger fish to fry. Like parenting or whatever. And honestly, there are times when the social networking clearly becomes less about keeping in touch with people and more about people attacking one another like cowards. I mean, seriously, would people ever say out loud some of the things they post on Facebook? No. No they would not. It's much easier to type out "People who vote for Obama are stupid, baby-killing socialists" than to sit down over coffee with your friend who is a democrat and say the same thing out loud to his or her face. Which is why I very seriously considered taking a break until after the election. Or forever. Because I joined facebook to keep up with friends and post pictures of my kids and comment on pictures of my friends' kids. Not to read everyone stand up on their soapboxes. But I decided against it. Because recently that silly little website has been a comfort and a help. I've learned a lot about people--and it's been a little surprising at times. Plus there are some super cute baby pictures!

I started this little sewing hobby, which got bigger. I learned how to make cloth diapers. Our summer savings account started to dwindle, and we needed money. So I started to sell them. I posted my venture on facebook. And do you know what happened? Several of my friends shared the link and told all their friends about it. Friends who didn't even use cloth diapers but wanted to support me. A few friends ordered diapers. I've made a little bit of money, and I've been enjoying the hobby-turned-kind-of-vocation. But really, I've discovered something awesome. That people care about me. And that facebook isn't just a place to voice your opinion on your political and social judgements views. It's a place to encourage and support. I like that. So I don't think I'll take the break. Because while I've seen the ugly in humanity on facebook, I've also seen the beauty. And it's not just me and my silly diapers. I've seen people post about friends in need, and I've seen people fill the need within hours. So I guess it's possible to use The Internet's power for good.

Anyway, I guess I'm trying to say thank you. Thank you to all of you who have purchased diapers, told people to buy diapers, and shared the link to my page. And thank you to everyone who encouraged me to try this in the first place. You've helped me defeat the "can't do anything right" voice that's lived in my head for most of my life. And I know this sounds all dramatic and stupid, but you've helped me see that people can be lovely and selfless. Living where I live, there's not a lot of that.

So thanks, Internet. You're not so bad.

God has been gracious to me through a very difficult time. A very difficult school year led to a difficult summer, full of unwelcome surprises. When I think back on everything, I get overwhelmed and weepy and fearful. So I'm not going to dwell on it. But I will say this: after a challenging school year I was looking forward to a rejuvenating summer. I was hoping for ten weeks that would heal my broken body, heart and soul. But what I got was a lot more brokenness. But the extra brokenness is (slowly) leading to the healing. I can tell you with certainty--sometimes you have to be taken to the end of yourself before you can rebuild. There was a day when I feared for my daughter. But God proved his faithfulness in protecting my family. And he led us to a new child care situation that (I believe) will be much better for her. There was a period when I feared for our financial situation. But God proved his faithfulness in providing for my family. He led us to a place of complete, daily dependence. All of these things are painful, but proving to be necessary for growth.


All of this sappy nonsense leads me to my next Important Thought. Tomorrow I go back to work. The beginning of the year is a bittersweet thing for me. I get a little bipolar about it. One moment I'm giddy and so excited to meet my new students, try new things, and act like an idiot for money (there is very little dignity in teaching middle school). The next I'm sobbing like a baby because I can't bear the thought of leaving my children and giving up my hour of freetime during their afternoon nap. But in the midst of the emotional rollercoaster, I'm closing in on stability. Last year beat the crap out of me. I think every teacher has one of those years that makes them rethink their life path (before you judge me for this, feel free to tell me that you love every minute of your job and have never had a moment of doubt). But I'm ready for this year. I'm ready to fall back in love with my career and this life of mine. To embrace the joys and the challenges. And a big part of why I'm ready is that I feel, maybe for the first time, like I've got a team of cheerleaders that are genuinely there. And I have a renewed faith in a God who has been very patient with me for a long time.


So now's the time, I'm sure, when my weak and tender confidence will be tested. And that's fine. Because I think this time I can take it.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

July Roundup

 July was a bit of a blur. There are a few things that I know happened: My friend Heathyr was here from Kansas for the month with her two littles, we did swim lessons, the kids had birthdays, we had two birthday parties, we went to the fair, Matt's mom and step-dad came down for a few days, and we did some other stuff. I will post seperately about all of the specific things, but here is the Random July Photo Dump.



Our pals the Dunlaps came out for a beach day. Sadly, it was the least sunny day of the summer. But the kiddos didn't care.





I finally got him to put his butt in the swing

















A few first steps :)














Our pals the Staffords came out for a visit. Yay friends!




This is how most family photos turn out. So if you're wondering why there aren't very many...this is it.

Moments later Emma fell on her face. Sad.

Another cloudy beach day.

Emma's favorite activity: rummaging through her brother's underwear drawer.













This is Ben, not jumping off the diving board on the last day of swim lessons


chicken

Nana got Ben a new slide

Finally! A sunny beach day!













We take a lot of morning walks/bike rides to the park